Al-Anon helps us deal with relapse

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Welcome to “First Steps to Al-Anon Recovery” from Al-Anon Family Groups. This is a series of podcasts to discuss some common concerns for people who have been affected by someone else’s drinking.

Philene, Marianne, and Mike are with us today. All are active Al-Anon members. Today we’re going to talk with people whose loved ones experienced a relapse during their recovery.

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76 comments on “Al-Anon helps us deal with relapse”

  1. Kate says:

    My husband and I have been married for 12 years. We have two beautiful sons: 9 and 5. My husband has been an alcoholic since we began dating, and probably much before that.

    Over the past 5 years his drinking has escalated to the point where it was frightening. He would skip work, drink during the day, I even found him drinking in the shower once.

    On January 20th, I came home from work before picking our children up at school and found him “asleep.” I packed him a bag and took him to his father’s house. He was connected the next day with his step-father, an 8-year-sober AA. He has been shown the program, and was attending daily meetings for about two weeks. He even connected with a man who offered to be his sponsor.

    During our separation, which was only about 2 and a half weeks, the children and I were shattered from his absence, though we did fall into a good routine. Free of drama and worry. My husband and I did not speak during this time and he had no contact with the children. We communicated through my father-in-law (the AA member.)

    After seeing what appeared to be a commitment to the program, I allowed him to come home. He had been staying in a hotel and it was becoming very expensive. We missed him dearly and were eager for “Daddy” to come home. Our agreement was that he would remain sober and attend meetings to do this. After a week of attending daily meetings, he stopped going abruptly (after his first long meeting with his sponsor). He had a number of reasons why he felt the program was “not for him.” I told him that it was his choice to make and that how he managed to remain sober was not for me to decide.

    Yesterday afternoon, the children and I returned home and my husband had obviously been drinking. I shuttled them off to television and other distractions and confronted him with as much love as I could muster and, not surprisingly, he denied that he had been drinking.

    I cancelled our family dinner and gave the children a treat of cereal in front of TV for dinner and proceeded to go about my evening routine with the boys, making it clear to him that he should stay downstairs.

    We have not talked about this as of this moment. I am filled with fear and anxiety right now because I do not know where he is, if he is at work or not, drinking or not. I do know that he called his step-father this morning and asked if he would meet him at a meeting tonight.

    I called his step-father to let him know that I believe my husband was drinking last night.

    I know that my contract with my husband said that if he drank he would need to leave. But I am really, really, really struggling with this because it is not just about me and my anger. Our boys’ hearts will break if Daddy has to leave again. My heart will break. I do not know where to draw the line between compassion and love for this man, and my own boundaries. I do not know what to do or where to turn or who to talk to. I do not have an Al-Anon sponsor, as I have only been to three meetings.

    I’ve been filling a notebook with boundaries, but it’s all too much to process. The idea of him leaving makes me physically ill. The idea of finding him drunk at home this afternoon also makes me physically ill. I have heard so many times that this would be a messy process, but I don’t think that I was ready to accept what that means. I don’t know if I ever will be able to calmly navigate the twists and turns, keeping a stable home environment for our boys.

  2. Leo A. says:

    My best friend has been sober these last 2 weeks after drinking almost every day for 7 months. Tonight she relapsed. I felt she was being distant in a text and I knew something was up. She lied about what she was doing and when I asked her why she wasn’t being herself, she admitted that she was drinking. And now she just wants me to leave her alone and said we can talk about it tomorrow.

    I don’t feel angry at all. I feel really sad. I know she wants to get better, but I understand that recovery is an up & down road. Especially this early in her recovery. All I can do is show her love & compassion. I pray to God that He protects me and that He gives me the strength & the courage I need to be there for her. I know what alcohol can do. I battle the same demon. I hope that tomorrow she’s able to forgive herself and start again. I pray that she doesn’t go into another downward spiral.

    Tonight is difficult, but tomorrow is a new day. And by God’s Grace, I will wake up with a heart full of love and ready to help.

  3. Dawn says:

    My boyfriend of 5 months just relapsed Friday after our first sexual encounter since finding out about his addiction and rehab.

    When we first met, he was the most amazing person I had ever met. He made me feel like a diamond. He treated me like the world. 3 months after we started seeing each other, he asked me to take him to the ER one day. On the way is when he told me about his addiction.

    At first I was scared and afraid. But I stood by him because I was in love with him. I met his parents and his children. We all became close and were fighting along side him.

    When he came home, things changed rapidly. He quit talking to me several times. Hurt me with being non communicative. When I finally got him to talk to me Thursday, I found out he had quit taking his medicines. I went to his house for a long talk. We had sex for the first time in 2 months.

    The next day he wasn’t feeling well. Today I went to his house to help with his children, since he got his meds and started them again. His mom came to tell me that they had found alcohol in his vehicle. I was hurt and broken. But the moment I sat on his bed and looked at him he told me that he had drank Friday.

    I don’t know what to do. I’m too stubborn to leave. He means everything to me. And if fighting this disease is part of him, well, I will fight with him.

  4. Anon says:

    My boyfriend was sober for a year. Recently he started smoking weed and drinking again. The last time he relapsed, he overdosed on heroin. So far it has been okay, but I am so scared that it will get worse and I will have to leave him. The fear is distressing. I know I will be okay without him, but he has been the love of my life and I do not want to lose him.

  5. kath says:

    I want to say, “But for the grace of God,” but can’t.

    I have been involved with an addict for 6 years and I have lost everything. I now feel I have joined in the addiction. Six Christmases of it now and I feel like I am falling apart when I had worked so hard at being well.

    I’m at a loss, don’t know how to cope with the damages or help anyone anymore. I just want him to go, then I have no one left. My dad was an alcoholic. I started early on, but I always stop. He doesn’t stop until the grog and the money is gone. I am surprised he survives each time.

    I feel used up and sick, my zest for life is gone with the Christmas binge, yet again. I feel surrounded by people with demons, who blame me. I am sick of my own behaviour and weaknesses, sick of allowing the behaviour of others to affect me and then ruin my health.

    Sorry for being so depressing, but that’s my vent.

  6. nick says:

    My wife to-be, Sue, who’s had a relapse on alcohol, has been through hell and back, but I’ve stuck with her even though she has relapsed again, putting us in an impossible situation. We have no money, just 3 days before Christmas. The last 8 days Sue has been so rude, nasty and horrible from drinking, but I still love her so dearly and will continue to try and help her and support her, because I love her.

  7. Emily says:

    First off, let me say how helpful it is to read everyone’s comments. There is a young man I’ve been seeing since mid November. At first, there didn’t seem like anything was wrong with him; the more time I spent with him, though, it became apparent that he had a drinking problem.

    My boyfriend has been in and out of rehab facilities since high school, for drug and alcohol addiction. He is very intelligent when he is sober and not drinking. But when he’s drunk, he turns into someone that I don’t recognize. He gets very sloppy and will go crazy! Every time we go out, he either has to stop at Walgreen’s or the gas station for booze. He stops at least 3 times a day! I know that I’ve needed to have a conversation with him about his drinking, but I can’t gather the courage to do it without the worry of making him angry. I just wouldn’t know how he would react.

    I am still very young (21 years old), and my boyfriend is 27. We are both in college, by the way. I care about him very much and I’m very concerned for him. There have been a few incidents where he has gotten drunk that have made me very uncomfortable.

    The first time was the last day of school. It started off as a wonderful day together. He and I went back to his parents’ house after school and ordered pizza, watched a movie and my boyfriend made some popcorn. Afterwards, he took me kayaking, and that was really peaceful and serene. Later that night, though, we went back to his house that his parents got for him. He stopped to get some booze on the way there.

    Later that night, one of his friends stopped by unexpectedly. My boyfriend invited him to hang, and his friend brought even more booze over. My mom wanted me home by midnight, but my boyfriend got too drunk to take me home. So I got stuck with him the whole night. I started off sleeping next to him, but the stench of alcohol was coming out of his pores to the point where I couldn’t stand it and slept on the couch.

    The second incident happened this past Monday. My boyfriend and I went to a holiday party at the restaurant he works at. It went from 6-9, and he had been drinking since 12 that day. And so he shows up to the party drunk just to get more drunk, acting like a fool in front of his coworkers and his manager. He made someone spill their beer on me and he was hanging all over people.

    I had never been so humiliated in my life. His manager took him aside and told him that something is wrong with him and he should get help. I got scared and upset to the point where I was crying in front of people I didn’t know and one of his coworkers had to give me a ride home. Then my boyfriend noticed I was missing, and he was convinced I’d been kidnapped. Everyone was telling him that I got a ride home, but he didn’t seem to care. All he could think about was getting to me or having me back.

    Then my boyfriend threatened to kill himself, and some people he works with took him to get help at a crisis center. So, he is in rehab now and I’m a little relieved. He is going to be there for about a week. When my boyfriend gets out, he is supposed to continue with rehab and counseling.

    I would like to believe that this is his last relapse and that he will stay sober for good. I really care about him, and I know he thinks the world of me. His mom has said how special I am to him, and he talks about me constantly at work. I’m really hoping he can make the change, but we’ll see.

  8. Michelle says:

    My husband and I will be married 20 years on December 31, 2014.
    We lost our house and jobs in 2012. Lived here and there for over a year and now I am staying with my mom, along with our 6 dogs. And he is in a program at the VA for homeless veterans and is being treated for all his addictions.

    He has been in their program for almost 3 months now. I have noticed that the calls and the texts began to get fewer and fewer and I confronted him about it and how it hurts my heart, and he always comes up with an excuse. Well, tonight he told me that I needed to read an article about “behaviors” and that he was not wanting to argue with me, and that I was the trigger object and he wanted to focus on himself.

    He has changed so much, I really feel as though the system has brainwashed him in believing he was better off without me. Oh yeah, they approved him and two other veterans to rent an apartment together, but he doesn’t want me to find homes for the animals so I can come be with him. You would think the VA would want me to participate in meetings or something? Well, anyway, I’m just so sad and I feel as though he has abandoned his family, which is me.

  9. Alex says:

    I am 22 years old. My whole life my father never appeared to me to be an alcoholic. At times he was a problem drinker, having a few too many at family gatherings. When I went away to college, he began to hate his career more and more. He and my mother also started having marital trust issues.

    The last two years I was in college, he was drinking and hiding it. Drinking on the job, which got him fired a few months before my graduation. Then the summer I moved home it was the worst. Fired from another job for drinking, driving drunk, the works. Finally after a day of disappearing and drunk texting my mother and me, taunting us about where he might be, we had police find him passed out in a local bar. He was taken to a hospital for a night, then into a weeklong hospital rehab.

    He promised things would change, but we demanded a strong in-patient facility. After a couple days at home, refusing to go but not drinking, he went. He was in rehab for about a month and appeared to be a changed man. Went to any meetings he could, got “the religion,” and made a lot of friends. He came out, attended meetings regularly, talked of honesty and choices and being a better husband/father. Got a job. Everything was great those first three months he got out.

    Then today I woke up, smelled alcohol in the air. As soon as I saw him and asked, he denied it. Drunk as ever. My father has relapsed for the first time. I don’t know what to do. I’m a student teacher and make no money for 6 more months. My mom has her first 9-5 in years and barely makes enough for the mortgage. We had to file bankruptcy because of what happened when he was drunk for months and not working. My 29-year-old brother still lives at home too and has two kids (4 & 5) who come over on weekends. I feel so defeated. I feel so broken. I don’t know what to do. I thought he was better. I know relapse is likely, but it sure sucks.

  10. Breanna says:

    My husband has struggled with alcoholism for our entire relationship, 6-7 years now. After a bout of serious suicidal thoughts, he decided that it was time to go to rehab and get help. He suffers from severe manic depressive disorder so it has just been a vicious cycle with the drinking. He had been sober for the last 3 months and has just relapsed.

    I understood with the recovery process that this was something that could happen, and didn’t let myself naively think that drinking was forever gone from our lives.

    When I found out, obviously my first reaction was anger, how could he do this to us. We have spent hundreds and hundreds of dollars on psychiatrists, hospital bills, therapy sessions and meds. All to help the mental illness that was “masked” by the drinking. I have tried my best to be the supportive wife he needs, which is not easy all the time.

    Now I am feeling deeply saddened. It felt like 7 years of fighting and resentment started disappearing when he got sober. Even his bad days sober were better. We used what he learned in therapy to cope with some of the feelings he was dealing with. He was hopeful for the future. After having a rough week at work, fighting between me and him, and his new medication not working, he decided there was no more hope.

    Now we are back to where we started. He is already putting me down, blaming me for the drinking, telling me to divorce him cause he doesn’t care anymore. At first I lashed out also because I was feeling angry, and now I am keeping cool and not letting the hurtful things he says affect me negatively. I feel he does that so I will fight back and he can use it as an excuse to drink more.

    He says he wants to continue his sobriety, though, that he doesn’t want this. All I can do at this point is support his want and desire to be sober. I hope he follows through and uses this relapse as a learning experience.

  11. Julia says:

    My boyfriend, whom I love very deeply, recently went into rehab (1 week), after I found him after falling off a stool with a dislocated shoulder and head injury. I had no idea he was using. I rushed him to the ER and found out there the drugs and alcohol in his system with liver inflammation. He was hallucinating intensely.

    After the ER visit, and believing his lies, I took him home and left for a hotel. He was clear minded. He yet again used and hallucinated a break-in, called the cops and got arrested for possession and public intoxication. He agreed to go into rehab the night he was released from jail. He is there now. I know it is the right decision.

    I have hopes he can return the man I love. I am so scared though. I don’t know how to deal with my anger and fear and love and forgiveness. I am mad I will be alone for 90 days in our house in the country. I am moreso happy and overwhelmingly grateful to God that he went to rehab for help.

    I don’t know how to communicate how I feel to him–if I should wait for him to come to the step to apologize to those he hurt, or if I should ask him about the crazy things he did in those destructive 48 hrs (like the clothes I found in the freezer). I don’t know if I should tell him I miss him> or if that will just make his recovery harder. I am so afraid of rocking his recovery boat.

    I feel on egg shells. I work a lot, I want to get into Al-Anon. My loneliness is building, and with it feelings of resentment towards him for his decisions and addiction that tainted our new home. But I cannot be angry at him for his disease of addiction. We both have it strong in our families. I just feel lost, and wish I knew the right way to communicate with him the way I feel.

  12. Pam says:

    My fiancĂ© is an alcoholic. We’ve been friends for over 14 years and I’ve seen him at his worst. He has relapsed twice during our relationship together, which is in its 1st year. Today is his 3rd. He left this afternoon and tonight I am sitting here waiting, worried and angry.

    I’m waiting in the living room, thinking every sound is him walking home. Worried that he might freeze in these winter night temps. Angry that he won’t freeze because someone is keeping him warm–uuggh. Mostly, I’m angry at myself for believing his words of love, loyalty and sobriety.

    I read these stories of relapse and relationships that span over decades. Am I wrong to want out of this now? Should I “understand” this disease and be compassioned to hold out, give him a 4th chance?

    I ask myself these questions but my past shouts loudly that it’s in my nature to be empathetic, especially toward men with addictions.

    I am screaming inside for the strength to be empowered. To withdraw from this now, to walk away from this addicted soul that I love.

  13. Paige says:

    My mom has relapsed. I didn’t know what to do. This isn’t the first time. I support her and rent our studio. She blames me for everything, lies to me, and has a “boyfriend” who’s barely a year older than me. I feel like she’s become the child in our relationship. I don’t know what to do, how to deal with this. I’m hurting so much, and not even talking to her helps. Most people just tell me to let her go, but if I do that we will lose the littler kids and it’s killing me. I am 18.

  14. kaycee says:

    My husband came home from an 8 week stay in rehab 5 days ago and my son found a bottle today. I’m hurt and angry. How can he do this? I’m sorry. Everyone says this is a disease and he can’t help it. I’ve been dealing with this for 20 years and I’m so tired of it. But I don’t know what to do. I’m scared and cannot afford to be on my own.

  15. Anita says:

    My husband of 35 years had 25 years of sobriety until 3 years ago, when he decided he could start having a glass of wine for dinner, and that was all she wrote. Three years later, he is full blown in his disease and seemingly close to dying. It is breaking my heart but I had to leave. I cannot stand to watch him killing himself.

    He drives under the influence. He is retired and I still work, so I come home to him nearly every night drunk and high. He smokes medical marijuana for pain (which he says is why he drinks too). Over the summer he took care of some of the grandchildren and we found out he drank and drove them, too.

    He starts fighting with me if I say anything about the drinking when the grandchildren are over so now my daughter, of course, says he cannot watch the kids because of drinking while watching them, and they cannot come over without her because of the fighting.

    Now I have had to leave. I cannot live like this. But I feel worried about him and I feel guilty for not taking care of him. Even though when I went back to pick up some clothes he called me every name in the book, blamed me for everything, said he hopes I drop dead etc. Then he sent me a message about how sorry he was and he feels very remorseful, so much he hopes his heart stops because he doesn’t want to be here anymore. Then he called today and told me to divorce him because he is a hopeless cause. It all makes me so sick. I can’t stand it, and I still love him!

  16. Anna says:

    I read all the above stories and cannot help but feel guilt and shame for having to put my family through all the worries and stressful situations you all feel. As an addict, there’s not a day that goes by that I’m not battling with my disease. I have three children, a really good job, and still have urges to use. This does not stop, but hearing your stories makes me think twice.

    Addiction is a disease and family members don’t know how to stop it. There comes a point when you have to give the addict an ultimatum and it sounds from all you have stated you can’t just leave. Getting support for yourselves and seeking a higher power to hand it to can help. I’m sorry you all must go through this and I will pray for all of you.

  17. Sheila says:

    My husband has been sober for a year and a half and relapsed two weeks ago. He has by lying to me and hiding it from me. I don’t know what to do next or how to help him.

  18. margie says:

    My daugther had been in rehab for 22 days. She just came home this past Wednesday and has relapsed. She won’t go to meetings, telling me she’s not court-ordered to go. She’s had two DUIs in not even 2 months. One involved hitting a parked car. She has a two-year-old daughter.

    All we’ve been doing is fighting, saying nasty things to each other. I pushed her tonight, she has me so mad. I’ve been here for her, watched her daughter for three weeks while she was in rehab, and that’s the thanks I get, to get treated bad after everything I do for her. I am so worried about my granddaughter and my daughter. I don’t know what to do.

  19. Mimimomo says:

    I can totally relate with each of you. I am from Asia, moved here and got married 4 years ago to a recovering alcoholic. And now we are blessed with two little kids. My husband was sober for 5 years and he relapsed back in July and went in for treatment for 24 days. Just got out 5 days ago and now he relapsed again. I can’t describe the pain I feel and also the disappointment.

    I’m worried that he’ll lose his job. I have no family here. I’m so scared for him as this disease will eventually kill him, if he continues doing what he does. I’m worried about my kids as well. It breaks my heart every time I think about all of these. I don’t know if I should stay in this marriage or not.

  20. jennifer says:

    I relate with many of you. My 22-year-old relapsed 8 months ago. Not using everything, but he’s smoking pot and drinking. More frequently, he gets belligerent and says horrible things to me–also blames me for everything when he’s drunk.

    He doesn’t want to go to meetings and says he doesn’t want to stop. He binge-drinks every two weeks but has been drinking every week and this week drank twice. I also have picked him up from the gutter, but for some reason he doesn’t see how quickly he’s moving backwards.

    I’m afraid of what may happen to him. Afraid that he’ll start using again. I don’t know what to do. Picked him up drunk today and I hate to say it but I hope he’s passed out already. I’m a nervous wreck. This has been a 5-year battle, but I don’t see him fighting as hard as he could be.

    I want to ask him to leave, but he has nowhere in the world to go. I can’t stand the thought of him being on the street. I’m at a loss.

  21. Amy says:

    I am dealing with my husband of 35 years relapsing after 9 years of sobriety. Most of the years previous to him getting sober were hell. During that time there were periods of sobriety, but they were few and far between. There finally came a day when he agreed to enter rehab and came out a better man than ever, and I was so proud. I could even joke to him that there never was a drug that he didn’t try, a drink he didn’t drink or a woman he didn’t have.

    I also had unbelievable courage after rehab and put in writing that I would never put up with anything and one time screwing up and he would be out. Well, a month ago he admitted he had smoked a joint. I freaked and he promised he would never do it again, but three days ago he came home drunk and stumbling. I lost it and demanded he go to a meeting. He did last night, but the attitude about that meeting was different than it had been before and I knew he went because I made him and not because he believed he needed it.

    I forgot how sick this all made me and how I can’t think of anything else. I am angry that I have been brought back down to feeling this way. Confused as to what my next move should be as I cannot live on my paycheck alone and cannot get a second job due to helping take care of my mother who is in the later stages of Alzheimers.

  22. Martina says:

    The abuse I get from my son is horrendous. I have a drink now and then and he calls me some horrible names. Twice I picked him from the gutter, two-and-a-half years in an ongoing drunk. Does everyone who gets sober treat their mother like this, as I have been. To my own care workers, every week, does everyone that gets sober carry on like this, or am I losing my mind–because everything seems to be my fault, even though I do everything to help him. I think I am cracking up.

  23. Jean says:

    My only child and son is 32. He was a recovering alcoholic of 10 years the first time, one month the second time, and recently relapsed a third time after tow months–one of those months he was in treatment.

    His story is his dad hasn’t been in his life for most of it, which is sad but true. His father and I divorced when he was five, as his father was a full-blown alcoholic. He has lost his wife of nine years to divorce, and is on the path of losing his job he has worked so hard for. I am just sickened inside.

    I need Al-Anon. I lost my second husband to a sudden death four years ago–an awesome man. I can’t do this anymore. I have no life. Since his divorce, he came back home to live for a while. It has been a chaotic six months, to say the least. He and I are very close, but some ways he blames me for things–I believe that is part of the sickness.

    I thought this time he was on the path to sobriety, but it was won out by the alcohol and his choice to drink again. I am in a state of what do I do now? Do I ask him to move and feel guilty and worry sick over how he is? Or do I give him the chance to sober up and lay down a contract of what I will and won’t accept and if he doesn’t live that contract he is then going to have to move out. I appreciate all of the thoughts and shared feelings.

  24. jan says:

    This all sounds so familiar. My ex-husband never helped with my son or around the house. In fact he made messes and just left them for me to clean up. He spent money we did not have on alcohol and now years later I am finding out he was spending it on drugs as well. Thankfully I walked away from the situation after 19 years of marriage. He just passed away a little over a week ago from cirrhosis of the liver. Very sad and such a waste of a life.

    They always make it seem like it is you who has the problem so you stay in the relationship and feel afraid to move on with your life. I did it and it was not easy starting my life over again at 49 but I did it and I am so glad I did. For my son’s sake as well as mine. Also the threat about taking your children if he leaves. My ex said the same thing and it instilled fear in me for years until I realized that no judge in the world would award custody to an abusive alcoholic. He had to stop working soon after our divorce because of his alcoholism and his illness.

    I worked full time and had to arrange care for my son so I could work. I went to food banks for help to supplement our food and got help with my utility bills and did my own divorce because I could not afford a lawyer. I won’t lie, it was tough! And I depended on that child support to keep our heads above water. Once he stopped paying that and because he was self-employed and sick and I had no money for lawyers etc, I got so behind on my bills that I lost my house.

  25. Mo says:

    My husband and I have been married for almost 4 years now. We have 3 children. He hasn’t been around much of their life. He has been drunk most of the time. He was drinking very heavy and would stay gone for a week at a time and leave me and the kids. I would be sick with worry–Is he with another woman? Is he hurt? Is he in jail?

    I would call everywhere looking for him. He got so bad he would be throwing up blood, peeing on himself, and doing crazy things he says he didn’t realize he was doing. He lied constantly and hid everything he did. He drained bank accounts before bills were paid. I would find myself racing to the bank to get bills paid before he had a chance to rob us. He was verbally mean and would break everything in our home. I told him I couldn’t live that way anymore.

    He quit for almost 5 months this last time, and now he is at it again–lying again, and everything is my fault. I caused this. I’m a bitch with daddy issues and he has done nothing wrong. He doesn’t need a momma. He will do whatever he wants when he wants. He dumps beer on me and calls me names and says I’m a worthless mother. If I leave, he will take the kids.

    I don’t know what to do. I love him. I want our family together, but how do you live this way? How do you ignore it and act like things are ok? I’m constantly walking on egg shells, thinking about every move I make. I’m scared and I don’t know what to do.

  26. KEB says:

    I just found out that my 19-year-old son has relapsed. Not sure when exactly, but his father and I suspected he may be using based on his behavior (funny how that hunch is usually right).

    After getting a possession charge last fall, he agreed to go into rehab. He was there for 10 days, followed by 3 months in a halfway house and then was in 2 different 3/4 houses. While he has worked, the best he did was work for 5-6 weeks and then got fired. That was 3 jobs ago. So his dad and I have been subsidizing his living.

    After him getting fired from the last job, I didn’t pay the weekly rent so he had to leave. I was bothered by his entitled attitude. I don’t expect a bunch of “thank-you’s,” but do expect him to keep a job and make forward progress. After a few days living in his car and his dad returning from vacation, his dad suggested he come live with him and that family under certain conditions–working, stay clean, save money, etc. That was one week ago.

    I discovered today that he withdrew the most recent check he received, which was a few hundred dollars, without any regard to the car insurance that is due or the $1,800 he still owes his grandparents. His dad confronted him and he admitted that yes he cashed the check and was using again.

    I feared this day. He had been sober 6-7 months but does struggle with depression, is immature and still sick. Since he was supposed to be sober as a condition of living at his father’s, he has been kicked out. It breaks my heart and I fear what will happen to him. I think he needs to hit bottom. He has to want to be clean–I don’t think he is ready, even though he has legal ramifications to him relapsing. I wonder if I am doing the right thing by letting him be homeless.

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